So I had another bad weekend. IT was not as bad as last week. As some of you know I live alone in a new City that I moved to to for my wife to go to grad school. Anyway, I only know people at work who are way older than me. Well I have tried to go to two meetup.com groups but all the people there were way older than me and not anyone I would hang out with. So I have given up on that. I am literay alone and trying to make the best of it. I feel like a loser not going out and being social, but I have been emotionaly destroyed that I only feel like crawling into a ball sometimes. So I am stuck here until september because of my job and finances. I hate being like this. All this is making it hard not to think of her and this whole mess my life has become. During the week I seem to be ok, not great, but ok...then the weekend comes and bam I take some steps back. At least I have DS and television to distract me. I never thought that at 27 I would have to be dealing with something like this. I'm sorry this is so long but I needed to vent.
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