As you most probably know from my previous posts, Ive let my husband back after days of begging, emotional abuse, and threats. Im so stupid. I couldnt take it anymore and just gave in. Or to say..I gave up. Hes been back for a total of 3 days and is already acting like hes doing me a big favor. Hello? He begged me to come back. I told him wasnt in love with him anymore. I told him he scared me. He obviously doesnt care. He is happier then a pig in shit right now. He won and he knows it. Ive given up friends, my morals and good judgement, everything for a man I hate. I never thought I would hate someone and now I truely do. We got into a fight last night because Im afraid of him. According to him, he only said the things he did...(maybe I should hit you, maybe I should rape you, If I had no self control you would be gone by now) because he wanted to make me cry. Thats it. Hes never laid a hand on me..not once...in our 11 years together. But Im supposed to just shake it off. Forget he ever said those things..just chalk it up to "He was hurt". I feel like Im in a bad afterschool special. Like I should be fleeing with my kids. I know Im not stupid for feeling scared or confused. But he makes me feel that way. Ive decided Im going to save money in a secret account and when I have enough... run. He swears he would never ever hurt me like that. He swore on the kids. But I feel like a moron. Am I making the right decision? Anyone else in the same boat? Please help!
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