Today just seems to be overwhelming. He took all of his things yesterday and I thought I was doing ok. Today I just feel miserable and feel so much hate. I hate that he is being a coward, leaving his me, his life, his home after we worked so hard for what we had. I hate that he is being selfish. I hate that he can walk away with not a care in the world and I have to fight to keep my head above water. I hate that he took and took from me and never gave back. I hate that he thinks I'm not worth fighting for. I would have loved him to the end and fought till my last breath if he only wanted me to, but he didn't he threw it in my face. I just wish I had someone here to hold me tight and make me feel safe because I don't right now.
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