At the end of the day when you lay in bed. Its just you. Who can really fill that void? How does one become completely content with themselves. I am my best friend at the end of the day. I know what makes me happy and what I need to be happy. Only I know how to obtain happiness. Tonight I lay here thinking. WHo am ? whats my worth? I often wonder if I am worth anything. You know thats just a little devil on my shoulder trying to pull me down. I am no worse than the next emotion filled person. So again as I lay here I wonder how many other people are doing the very same thing. Im ok. Im alive,breathing.Im not hungry,cold and for all its worth I am loved. I have no reason to be lonely. Divorce is like this thorn that has been pulled out. It heals slow and there is most likely a scar. The bush is one you are more careful around. However the wound heals and eventally you almost dont even think about it. The scar reminds us what not to do the next time. The Bush is still beautiful and your most likely be willing to go close again. But the scar reminds us to be careful. My scar has healed nicely. None the less it is still a scar and I remember the pain all to well. Its a new time for me now. I need to rely on myself for happiness not my significant other. I finally get it now I just need to apply it.... I think I am ramblin but still I am feeling something. Thought I would share... At least im not alone... Right?
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