i recently found out i was pregnant after taking precautions it came as a shock,but although i was scared stiff part of me was happy and saw it as a freash start after i had gained a divorse from a man that had fractured my skull and cheekbone with a baseball bat when i found out that he had been leading a double life for the entire 23y we were married and had another family i knew noting about.I had moved on and had met my new partner and was enjoying life,unfortunatly my new partner did not feel the same way,he to had gone through a divorse and had a young daughter,he said this would push her away from him and that he already had a family he didnt want another one.He said i would again lose my independance something he knew i had fought for such a long time after being married to this control freak.The divorse had left me in terriable debt i had fought for the house and taken out a loan to pay solicitors fees,and remorgaged to pay ex out,now i have the house i cant afford the morgage,he does not work and has found it difficault to find work,he said if circumstances were differant perhaps it would have been ok but they wasnt so i should do whats best and have a abortion.I didnt know what to think,i went ahead and had the abortion,when i came round he was gone,i stood waiting outside i felt so empty and alone,he came back after about a hour and said he just needed to clear his head,after we got home he sat with me for a few hours said everything was going to be fine and then left for the pub.That really hurt i wanted someone to be with me that night just to hold i have no family or friends only him so there was no one to talk to.Its been four weeks now inside i feel like im dying,to him everythings fine,he had his daughter stop last night,i have only met her once in two yearsand feel like he has kept that part of his life quite seperate to his life with me,i became upset when he told me she was stopping i imangined him with his daughter and it made me think of my baby,i remembered his remARKS i have my family i dont want another one and it really hurt,he said i was out of order to get upset and make him feel guilty for spending time with his kids and is really angry with me,but it wasnt like that and i dont know how to explain to him and if i have done wrong ive opoligised but he is still really mad,please please advise me have i done wrong
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