reconciliation? I'm not sure if I want to reconcile or not. At this point it doesn't seem likely anyway b/c my husband is staying as far away from me as possible. I was at church on Sunday, and I asked a friend of mine to pray for the situation. For some unknown reason, she asked if that was what I really wanted. I thought about her question and gave her some answer. I believe in the power of prayer, but I don't know what to pray for b/c I don't know what I want. The more I talk to my husband and think about how he left me and our son, and how he has treated me since he has been gone I'm not so sure if he called me tomorrow I would want him back. I know I don't want him back under the same circumstances in which he left. I pray for whatever God's will is that I will have strength to go through and that he will show me his will. I also pray the serenity prayer, and I pray that God fixes me and my faults and makes me the woman that I need to be. My son and I are getting ready to move back into our house. So, I'm excited about doing things on my own. My husband is the only man I've ever been with sexually. The whole dating aspect is scarey to me, but the prospect of meeting someone new who will treat me the way I deserve to be treated is exciting as well. I know I won't be ready to date for a while anyway. I know without a doubt I still love him the same as I did nine years ago when we married, but I know that love is not enough. If it were enough DS would not exist and a whole lot of people would still be married. lol Send hugs and thoughts my way please, and thank you in advance.
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