My STBX was just here cleaning up a project he had been working on outside. He came in to ask me what I thought about it. And, yes, it did look very nice, BUT I wanted to not appear to be too excited about it. He then asked me if I wanted him to stop trying to talk to me and or calling because I seemed as though I didn't want to see him. (ya think, duh) Anyways, I make a point of being neutral and not too much emotion either way when I do speak to him even IF i wanna choke the shit otta him. I don't want to be misinterpreted as "wanting to see him naked" or "I cannot live without you" or "I want you to move back home" or "if I wasn't such a controlling demanding bitch, I could cope with you being a Bipolar/Binge drinking assole who likes to spend money on table dances". Can anyone out there feel my pain?
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