he's leaving on Wednesday and I am looking forward to it and I am not at the same time. I have a gut wrenching feeling all the time and when I think of him leaving, I just think that it will be my time to heal. With him being here, it's just prolonging the hurt and anxiety i feel. i told him today that i am not mad at him, but rather i am mad at the hurt he has caused me to be in. I really wish I could fast forward to a year from now so that I could see where i would be. I really hate him for making me feel like this. He really is a fucktard!
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