My husband is bipolar the whole 11 years we've been married. I didn't know this at the time, but he was suffering from dissociative personality disorder when I met him (seemed quite normal to me). However, he was diagnosed bipolar shortly after marriage. He held a job for a couple years then went on SSDI. Since our marriage I now have been diagnosed major depressive (past 9 years)and am on meds and therapy. My husband is in and out of mental hospital two to three times a year. He has worn out the family with his ramblings of suicide and depression. I have been separated the past year because my physical and mental health were in bad shape. I'm much better but as I have started spending more time with him I find myself falling back (in fact I just took him to the hospital again 2 days ago, talk of suicide). I have been very supportive in the past, but am completely drained now. I think the time has come where I have to make a decision - take care of him or me. I can't keep doing this but feel selfish and guilty. I just want some fun, happiness a life and someone to share it with. Am I the only one going thru this?
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