I have been extremely depressed lately, to the point that I had to take a week off from work. I am so hurt and depressed that I dont have the strength get out of bed. I feel lonely and abandoned then I feel guilt for shutting out my family and friends but I just cant find the will to do anything. My heart is shattered!! So I came on here for what I dont know!! One of the biggest problems my bf had w/me was he felt I was addicted to the internet. I deleted my myspace account, I gave him the pw to my aol account so he could see I wasnt meeting people. He was right though because I met a lot of people online. I found its so easy to just IM someone and make friends. Now I want to avoid all that shit. No aol, no myspace none of those places. But I am here. I dont want to meet anyone. I dont want hook ups or to deal with shit like a popularity contest or something. I just want to express my pain. Im confused. Im sad and I dont know if this stupid account is a good thing or a bad thing. Or was my ex right? Am I addicted to the internet??
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