Yes...every day I fear it.

Hey Tami!

I'm guessing we all have at some time or another. Are you feeling that way tonight?

Hugs!

Yes. Recently as a matter of fact. I just keep extrapolating my life until I see myself on some nursing home porch, waiting to die. Frightening!!!

Theres no getting around it for me. Two divorces and my age prevent marraige from happening again. I think I will try for a friend that keeps her income and home seperate. I will pray and ask God to understand.

All of us do at one time or another, but in reality we are not. I think its the worst in the beginning of the divorce process, but time and the effort we put into our faith really works.

The interesting thing about this feeling is that it can't get any more irrational. That is, i am terrified about the idea of being alone for ever! I get tearful when I see an old guy alone. Yet, I know for sure there will be someone else someday. I'm as convinced of that as I am fearful that I'll be alone. See! Makes No sense AT ALL! N.

Yeah, last year when this first happened I wondered if I weren't just going to be alone from now on.

Now I think I have a 50/50 chance. LOL

I have that fear. It is real.

my daughters on the other hand. bless their hearts have had a big plan in the works for many years now...

they will all move in with me and Dad (this was prior to the divorce)...
they would get married.. move in ... have kids.. and I would take care of the grandchildren... oh yeah!....NOT

I told them no way Jose.. but they just laffed at me.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... the Dad is gone. but the plan still remains... I am not sure if the youngest still wants it.. but they have chosen names and genders of the grandchildren.

Told them i would be getting a few boyfriends, a sportscar with only two seats.. yes.. that is right.. no room for you kids.. and Im going to fall in love.. well.. that just brings on the giggles... and the eye rolling.

Hey.. I can dream!

Every day for the last 15 months since my marriage ended...

I used to but I am ok with it now

I know I'm going to be alone forever. It's tough, but I'm making my peace with it.

in Utah?

Yes, in utah :)

If your not in the majority here, it can be a tough place to live.

I know I won't be alone forever but my fear is that I will keep picking the wrong ppl. Keep getting my heart broken again and again.

yeah, I'm sure. I know I'd not live in Utah in this life. I'm in NY where nothing is too bizarre