Around February, I began having panic attacks. They got so bad that I had to take a leave from work, and could not leave the house. This left my now ex fiance to do everything. I felt really bad about this and thanked him and apologized often. And to be honest, against my doctor's wishes, I was still drinking alot of wine to cope and to fall asleep. Before my month's leave was up, my ex could not take it anymore and moved out, right when I was at my worst. This left me alone and horribly depressed. A week later, I tried to take my life (NOT BECAUSE OF HIM LEAVING), but because I could not do anything without having an attack, and felt I had tried everything to stop having them. I almost died 3 times, they had to use the paddles. He was in the hospital everyday while I was in a coma. My parents came and when I was released took me home with them to get better. This is 700 miles away. My ex promised me, that all though he could not have a relationship with me, he would always be my best friend. This is not happening. He has only called me once, and emails me a couple of weeks after I email him. I am not pining for him. I realized that him leaving me when I needed him the most showed he was not commited enough to be my husband, but I do miss his friendship. We were very good friends before we started the relationship. So, what do you guys think is going on?
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