All it takes is one phone call from him and I fall apart. I feel like I digress from the whole week. I was feeling strong and confident. Kind of happy. I was accepting of my situation more or less. On the 'healing journey". It was a good day. Just my son and I. Then he calls. Calls to talk to my one year old son. My son who is one just pushes the phone away...so i feel compelled to say something. Since the anger had subsided a bit from last week. Then of course wait no longer than two minutes and Im back at it angry and fighting. He says' he'll sign the divorce papers. IM not ready!!!!!!!!!!!! IM NOT READY PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW I SHOULD BE BUT IM NOT READY! Everything is happening to quickly..I only left 7 months ago. I'll sign them later on eventually but right now I feel like total Crap and sobbing and horrible.. and he's the drunk.. why should i feel like the rejected one!! I have a headache soo horrible.. I want a hug. :( Something has got to give. Im tired of crying. It hurts.
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