I am still married, but am on the fence daily as to whether or not to stay with my spouse. He cheated on me 1 1/2 yr ago and is still lying to me on and off. Honesty is THE only way to build trust, therefore, when he lies, it continues to knock me back to the VERY beginning! My issue is my crazy belief that if I don't learn my "lesson" with this one, and learn how to "detach" in love that I will only make the same stupid mistake again with another man. Silly maybe, but my mom had done this except her second husband is 10 times worse than my dad was!! I KNOW I deserve better, but don't want to miss something...any advice?
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