I think I have finally come to a life altering decision. I'm thinking about separating from my fiance. I don't want to bore anyone with the details because it is long and dumb, but he is a child living in a 31 yr old body. He hasn't been supportive of me on any level. Not on any level. He's just negative and has a completely negative attitude about everything. All he does is complain. I don't understand it. He has a home, new child, me, a new car etc. He has things that anyone would kill for and he doesn't appreciate any of it. He still feels that his life sucks? He just lives for money, yet he doesn't have any and that is what makes him so miserable. I don't really think he cares about me, just what I can do for him. We have become complete opposites. I can't take it anymore. I have too much going on in my life to live the rest of my life with that. I try so hard to help him to feel better but to no avail. In my heart I think it's the best thing. I really don't feel that I love him anymore. He's drug me through too much. It has been a very hard decision and especially when I know he has a child mentality and when I do talk to him about this, he's probably going to freak out. I'm not sure if he is capable of having an adult conversation about this. I'm kindof scared. :0 I really think it's for the best. Anyone's input/advice is appreciated. I think he has finally broken my spirit and I need out for a while if not indefinately.
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