So it has been a week since he has left me, but i am still not leaving the house unless i have to, i am at the point if i can get up and go to work then i am doing good for the day, i have not smiled since he left me, when i come home and check my emails i hope and pray he has wrote to me which he is really good at right now, he says he just wants to make sure i am doing ok, but like i tell him i'm not, i am begging him to at least call me, and maybe come over for dinner so we can talk about this, in my eyes 4 years is a long time to throw away and i have even suggested a relationship councler but i have not got an answer on that one. I tell him how much i love him and miss him and need him. I am trying to give him his space but it is killing me, i still cant eat and if i try i still get sick, sleep doesn't happen much because i dream of him and wake up crying. My heart is broken and he says if it will help he will stop contacting me but i know that will just make it worse, I dont want to let go of our dreams we have together and i know deep down in his heart he doesn't either, that he is just going through a rough spot, but i really dont know how to go from day to day with out seeing him, hearing his voice and having him make me laugh. WE had our rough times like everyone does but we had so many more great times and wonderful memories. I have offered to change anything he thinks i need to but he says i am perfect just the way i am. I do not understand why he left me if that is true, i am hoping it is just the stress talking and he will want to see me and talk to me again very very soon.
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