Just when im getting myself back on track my ex seems to knock me back a few steps. I avoid the places he goes to & because he lives close i take a different route so i dont see him but he still seems to pop up in my life when i least expect it. A few weeks ago i was doing great untill he phoned me a few times, i ignored the calls but i felt myself going back to feeling sad, i went to see my doctor two weeks ago & when i came out he was working on a house opposite to my doctors (he builds driveways) again i went home feeling sad. I thought one place i can escape where he would never intrude would be facebook because he doesnt know how to use a computer but when i clicked on to an old school friends profile to leave a message, there he was, he must have got a mobile phone where you can use the internet. He wont be able to see my profile but just the thought of him rearing his ugly head (im just being a bitch) i cant seem to do anything without him showing up to stop me moving on. I dont think its deliberate but all the same i feel like he,s rubbing my nose in it because he,s with someone else. I wonder if iv murdered someone in my previous life & he has been put on this earth to torture me. lol. im not really laughing, i just want to feel happy again.
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