I seeked love from the devil or that is what he acted like. I have a 5 year old boy with this man and I decided last week that I was tired of his lies, name calling, drinking, taking off to get drunk, using the car as a tool when he is angry with me he takes it and much more. Last week he was drinking already and decided he was going to walk down the street to go get more beer and he asked my son and I what kind of candy we wanted? Well hours pass by and I go look for him and he is at the bar completely drunk and when I confront him he is cocky and didn\'t even have the respect to leave with me. It is not okay for him to be in a bar and he knew that while I was sitting at home waiting for him like always to come home from getting drunk. I am just tired. Another time my dog was dying and while I was taking care of her he told me he was going to get us some fast food and didn\'t come back until the next day and took my car. My dog died in my arms that night and he wasn\'t even there to support me when he was the one that brought her home. He has done things like this to me for years now and I am so tired, yes I have gotten revenge on him but I only do what i do to get him back for hurting me. He does things not caring if he is hurting me. We can say I love you one minute and the next he is telling me a lie. He has a drinking problem and drinks and drives. He is always calling me names and I am getting so angry inside. He never spends time with me or my son and is in general a very selfish man. I am hurting inside because of all the broken promises and talks that never meant anything to him. Yes I know he has some sort of love for me but I cannot be loved at his convenience. I need someone who will love me all the time and be a true friend to me. I need support and advice. I want to be truly loved and not at someones convenience.
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