My husband threw me and my kids out on 10/22 he filed for divorce. Threatend me I had to get a protection order. He moved a herion addict in with him less then a month after we split and has her care for my child. When he is suppose to have him. He refuses to pay me any support because he says he isn't working but has a brand new luxury car. We haven't talked in all this time not one word. On Feburary 19th I had a surgery that became infected and has compromised my imune system and caused me to be very ill. Then on march 17th st patty's day my true irish luck showed through when I was assaulted at work and had my tail bone broken. I still have the infection from the surgery and it has become really bad staff and possibly gone into my bones. Through all this I have had a guy friend who has been there for me everyday and taken care of me I actually felt I could trust someone again. Then this week I got him stealing from me not only once but twice. The first one he had to admit to the second time he denied. Needless to say I have cut my friendship off from him. I live in a very small town and my husband has a very large family and I have actually been called a cunt in front of my children by a stranger. about two weeks ago my STBX and I met to file our taxes it was the first time we had talked in 6 months. My heart broke into pieces. He has been calling e and talking to me and basically I know he is only being nice to me to try to manipulate me, but I feel I'm at rock bottom. I am more depressed and devestated now then when we first split up. I feel like no one would even care if I just didn't wake up tommorow. What is wrong with me. Why is it impossible for anyone to LOVE me? I really can't take one more thing going wrong or even one more ounce of pain. I give up I don't even want to try anymore.
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