Hello everyone. I've noticed that since I've faced reality, my emotions surface more often. Most of this week it has been fear and sadness. Today anger is my number one feeling. One thing about anger, it makes you tired. I'm exhausted but not sleepy, my jaw is tight. I'm pretty good at not retaliating with anger, but then I have to find a way to vent it. I did that in my journal tonight. Funny, I started preparing for divorce and intellectually knew it was right.........but right now, I hate the way I feel, and I hate these mood swings. And sheesh, I'm only preparing for it..........I must be a wimp. I can and will do this, but I'm just beginning to see what others tell me about, "going through the hell of divorce to get to recovery". well, There you have it............now I'm laughing at myself after re-reading what I've written.
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