I went to an event today alone... My stbx (I can't believe I just stbx because i want to stay in denial where there is hope) Anyway- My stbx would typically attend everything w/ me like weddings & birthdays such as this. Everyone there knows me pretty well & were very supportive, paying me nice compliments & asking how I am doing. But the pity, I could hear it in their voices & see it in their facial expressions. I felt so uncomfortable... I ate, danced & laughed- tried to be as cordial & as social as I could, but but the end of the party I was just plain miserable.. I don't want people to pity me... I've been reading all kinds of literature about moving on & rebuilding self-esteem & I thought going out & spending time w/ friends today would help.. Not so much..
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