I have to see stbx later today because he's coming to watch the kids for me. It sucks SO bad. Not that long ago, this was a person I slept with every night, could talk to about anything, hug, kiss, touch....and now it's all this forbidden thing, like a couple of strangers with a past. I don't know how to act, what to say...it's a little piece of hell on earth. I know, I know, some day it will be easier, blah blah blah. But this is now and that's a long way away. I have to deal with the now. There's no doubt a good sob in my near future :(
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