Hi, I've been a member for almost a year now, but this is the first time I have posted anything. I've been through so much this past year, from separating, to divorcing, to moving into an apartment, to having a biopsy and lumpectomy on my left breast (thankfully it wasn't cancer), to my son being diagnosed with Chrone's disease. It's been very trying to say the least. Now my sister isn't speaking to me for the past 6 weeks or so with no end in sight to that. I had to divorce my husband because he was verbally, emotionally, and financially abusive. I didn't want to be divorced, but I found I had no choice if I wanted to maintain my sanity. I've found it very hard to let go of something for which I worked so hard. My ex-husband would love nothing better than to get back together, but he hasn't proved himself in the very least. He is still be controlling and manipulative. He had a large part of his colon removed at Christmas time and although he works in Pennsylvania, he has decided to "recouperate" back up here. I gave him the house in the divorce as there was no equity in it and I couldn't afford the payments. Since he is off on disability, my alimony and child support payments are no longer regular. He is supposed to get money from disability insurance, but they are holding his papers up at the hospital in PA. He recently went into the hospital up here as he has an infection and the medication they were prescribing him from the previous hospital in PA was poisoning his system. I'm in dire straights as far as money is concerned and I'm very scared. I had to borrow next month's rent money from my father, but that won't be something I can count on. I work as an educational technician at a high school and I supplement my income with a job after school. With all that I work (10 and a half hours a day), I still can't make it financially. As I wait for my ex to get back to work I am at his mercy for how much money he gives me and when he gives it to me. When he was working, I received a check directly from his work. I wish I only had to work through these emotions of heartbreak and depression without the anxiety of not making it up here. My son wants to stay up here. He's 13 and I don't want to move home with my controlling parents. Thank you to anyone who reads this and cares.
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