my fiance left a few months ago to sort out his cocaine addiction, we kept in constant contact, we were supposed to be getting back together when he became clean but its not that easy. he was such a loving , caring person until his addiction took hold. i helped him get a therapist & supported him throughout. two weeks before xmas my best friend told me he,d gone back to his ex after 3 1/2 yrs with me. we were due to be married this year. i tried to conyact him through a txt askin if its true but he wouldnt answer. iv had 3 withheld number phonecalls from him but each time i answered he hung up. i knew it was him because i heard him talk to someone, he didnt think id answer. the last call was xmas eve. i havent heard from him since. im so hurt. we were very close even throughout his addiction, he told me he had to leave because he didnt want to drag me down with him. iv spoke to people on the site for " families & friends of addicts^ im even a member of the cocaine addiction & recovery site. its helped a lot with understanding his addictive behaviour, alot of this is down to his addiction but the feeling im left with after breaking up is something they cant all relate to. one recovering addict who replied to my post tonight (its 7.45pm in the uk now) told me to more or less get a grip, go find some help & go find something else to obsess over. i was quite upset by it. if it was that eas then sites like this woul not exist because we wouldnt need them. thats why i decided to join this group in the hope that you all will understand that it just aint that easy to get over a breakup. im so hurt. i have no doubt that time will heal, i know he aint worthit,i know i have to take care of myself & my kids but it still hurts the same. i just need a little understanding & support because im sure most of you know exactly how i feel. id be greatfull for all replies...... ps,,please be gentle with me, im a little fragile at the moment.........louise
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