How do I stop being lonely? How do I rebuild my life when my life is built on the premise that SHE will a part of it? How do I stop feeling like a burden on those of my friends whom I dump my feelings on? How do I stop feeling like such a whiner; like I'm complaining about a situation that other people would handle much better than I am handling it? All I want to say to someone is that I feel awful and I want to just disappear and never feel anything ever again. I want someone to understand that I feel like I'm dieing inside and that my life will never be good again. I need someone close to me to call ME, just once, out of the blue, to say they are thinking about me and they love me and they are there if I need anything. Maybe I'm acting too happy and I need to mope around all the time so someone will feel sorry for me! Why does it feel like I am totally alone and no one understands how I feel??!!!
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