My husband and I have been seperated going on a little over a month. He wanted to "prove" to me he was trustworthy after several times catching him online with fake email accounts to talk to woman. He swore that he wanted to "fix" us and show me. We went to counseling 3x and by then I wasn't seeing any progress with us, if anything we were more distant then ever before. I made the comment that is this going to work? Is this worth it? He took it as though I didn't want to work on things, which was completly wrong. Anyways, he had his first date 2 weeks ago, and it was with a girl from his office who I had suspected something b/c he talked of her constantly. Now, can I say that my heart has not hurt this bad ever. I have lost both my parents at an early age, but I just can't accept this. He said they kissed good night, but last night she went to MY house, where I used to sleep. He said that they aren't doing anything sexual, but he's not sure where him and I are going either. He wants to "think" it over. In my head, he wants to see how this will work out with the tramp at his office. I can't stand the thought of him touching another girl, it makes me sick to my stomack. I have lost my appetite and have lost 13lbs in less then 2 weeks. Probably half of it is because of the water from the tears. I want to seperate myself from him, but I can't. I want to be with him all the time, and I don't know how to stop that. He calls, texts, and emails me all day long. I know he loves me, but I just can't accept MY Husband is dating and kissing another person. So, question is how do I make the hurt go away, the anger, the frustration? How can I make myself better without loosing my sanity at the same time. Thanks for reading I hope posting adn writting out my feelings will help me, but I just am lost with out him...
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