long long story short... i founf out that my father abandoned me when i was born and he cheated on my mom and thats y they divorced and that the only reason he wanted 2 c me wasnt becasue he loved me or felt sumthign missing but it was bcuz he felt sorry 4 me so i went the 1st seven years of my life only knowing my father as the man that made my mother cry on the phone and would take my brothers away from me once a week. and he led me 2 belive that it was the counsler or whoevers idea that i not c him until i was 7 but NNNNNOOOOOOOOO he decided 2 go have an affair with sum dumbass lady y my momma was pregnant leaving me 2 never no wat its like 2 have a motehr and a father......... and my momma says that if i try 2 talk 2 him about it then hell deny it so im not even going 2 bother and... he doesnt no that i now anything or that on my BIRTHDAY i found this out and got diagnosed with depression!!!!!!! and thats only 1 thing on my plate right now! and im afraid that the next time i go 2 my daddys im gonna have like a panick attack or sumthign or maybe an anxiety attack or start crying uncontrolably and he wont no anythign or understadn anythign and i just want 2 hit him so hard right now!!!!!!!!! GRR!!!!!!! i dont know how 2 move on or 4give him or anythign!!!!!!! i just wish that this would all just go away or at leastly like a FEW of the big things would vanish right now! i have waaayyy 2 much going on and im having like a mental break down that NO1 else can c and....................... please please help me with this sum1!!!!!!!!
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