I am drowning in this pain. Everytime I believe the past is just that, I try to move on, only to find myself 2 steps back. My husband and I have been separated since July07, why is this pain not going away? I had a really difficult weekend because of him. Not sure why he even bothers with me, because he has a 20yr old girlfriend. I have a no contact order, and he still finds ways around it too pester me. My heart hurts so terribly. I feel so alone, and betrayed. All I ever wanted was him. Now I feel I have nothing. Why do I define my self worth based on his opinion? Does this aweful feeling ever go away? Will I truely ever feel happiness again? I'm not a child, so why do I feel like one? Is there anyone who understands this and can help me too?
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