im really sad rite now. my husband have spent the past 6 christmas' together, and after one year of marriage, we split...not officially divorced. but all within a year we have miscarried a baby and split up. i just remember last year at this time i was buying him parenting books for christmas and we were putting up our first tree together. and now i hate holidays. we had special traditions and it breaks my heart to think about. this is the first year that im not spending time w my family. i just want to take a sleeping pill and the day to be over with. he's a great man and i hurt him beyond belief. he honestly deserves someone better than me, but i guess that's what happens when you fall out of love with someone. please give me advice on how to get thru guilt and the sadness of a family breaking apart. i need some help. thanks.