It won't be easy but you can do this. Think about all the crap you've been through and use that for your benefit. You are stronger than you think.

I wouldn't begin to try and downplay the pain you are feeling right now, but keep in mind most, if not all of us here have gone through the same thing, and its hard, but we got through it. And you will too, just remember that!

Now is the time you start learning just how strong you really are.

Maybe this first night could be a mom-and-daughters pajama party? They're probably pretty unhappy, too, and maybe there could be some mutual support there. Or would that just upset all of you more?

Just in the short time that you've been here you have been on a constant roller coaster. You know my story, you know the hell that I went through for almost a year. Please listen to others here..no it isn't easy..it sucks. It hasn't been easy trying to figure out what he is thinking or doing either. For your sanity and for your children's sake, please look at the hell he has put you through and ask yourself if that is really better than being alone. I was in exactly your position, except I am 10years older than you. This does not get easier as you get older. This does get easier as you learn to accept it and learn that sometimes it is better to let go than to constantly be in a state of turmoil. Once again, I promise that to be true.

Stay strong and positive. We are here.

I know this probably isn't the healthiest advice but it's what I did when my H first left.
I pretended he was away on business. I told myself this was temporary.
The only reason I even offer this advice is because I had no idea how I would ever sleep again. I had no idea how I was going to get through it.
Also, after countless weeks/months of not sleeping I was a complete basket case. I wasn't able to "deal". I was so filled with anxiety all the time. I know you didn't sleep last night so just remember that lack of sleep can bring on tremendous anxiety.
I visited my doctor and got a prescription for Lunesta. It has helped ALOT! My thoughts will be with you. Stay strong- get lunesta!

I feel exactly the same way. My husband told me yesterday (after being separated since October 14th) that our marriage was over. He never tried to make it work. And I feel hollow. I feel sick to my stomach. I feel so alone. I have no strength. I feel your pain. And I'm sorry you are going through this. I hope he gets better soon.

Well just like that he is now gone. I feel torn apart. I have been having anxiety and panic attacks like crazy today. I can't even bring myself to fake a smile for my girls. What kind of mother am I? They need me and I am so drained.

I know EXACTLY how you feel! I was you last weekend. I was having anxiety attacks being all by myself that first night. I cried for two days straight. I am currently trying to keep myself busy and throwing myself into my work and i've been on the internet alot too reading other people's stories and what they are going through and I find it has helped me tremendously. I thank God for this site. Without it, I would be in really bad shape. Hope this helps and please contact me if you want to chat.

You are a good mother. If you hid your pain from them, then they would think it is ok to go through what you are. Don't feel bad, for feeling bad. You are going through hell, and its ok to feel bad. Its normal.

It will get better.

It is truly a trying time....it hurts, but you will get through it, you will be there for your children, you are not a bad mom - you are just human. They will see you hurt, but just give them a hug and do what you can. You will only be able to do it moment by moment sometimes, but hang in there it does get a little less raw...and use the boards and lean on te people here they really do care!

I like the idea about the pajama party.

It isnt easy the first few nights, maybe even longer. I am hoping you get off this rollercoaster soon and find some peace for yourself so you can start to enjoy life again with your children.

you are a good mother. you care for your children. they will see how strong you are and you will be an awesome example to them. hang in there.

I want off this rollercoaster. My family doesn't understand my pain because of how bad he was to me. They don't understand that just because he wasn't the best of people all the time that this is my children's father and the man that I am not sure but I think I love. Still confused on that though. It wouldn't be so bad if he didn't tell me the past 2 days that he is "in" love with me.

You are feeling what we all feel, hurts like hell. There will be days you lose it, days you hold it together.
I am going to say a prayer for you :)