My husband is sending me so many mixed messaged that it is driving me crazy. He moves out in less than 2 weeks. Now on Saturday he was telling my best friend that he knows he is making a gigantic mistake and said I am the love of his life. She saw pain and sadness in his eyes. He doesn't know how to fix the many wrongs that he did to make them right. Then on the other hand he tells me he could never come back to us because of all the damage he has created. I took of my wedding rings last week and I put them back on this weekend. I feel as if I am not done fighting and until I am they will remain on my finger as a reminder of what I am fighting for. I don't know when enough, is enough. I get strong and ready to say good bye and he throws me a curveball. He tells me he loves me, he cuddles me at night, he will start my car in the morning so it is not cold when I get into it, he calls on his way home to see if I need him to pick anything up. I am soooo confused. He has put me through hell for the last 5 weeks. Do I let him walk, or do I want him to stay. I think he still needs to go and figure himself out before he can give himself over to me. I know if he doesn't change though it will NEVER work out for us.
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