Why do I feel the need to know why he did all this to me?? I sit and wonder why he cheated in the first place.. and if he really did feel guilty about it, why did he keep doing it. Why after telling me he truely was sorry, and promised me he would never have anything whatsoever to do with the bitch again.. why did he break his promise?? I want to be able to not care why.. I know deep down it isnt me with the problem, it is him. I dont know, maybe I am looking for answers to see if in some way it was something I did or didnt do, so in my future relationships I can change it. I dont know, I just feel the need to have answers.. and he wont give me any. He just wants to treat me like crap, and blame me for everything that he has done all on his own.
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