Today is 2 weeks from the last time I saw him and a week from the last time I spoke with him over the phone. I can't and I should go back. He is great, but it was a jail because of insecurity. Still.... I'm in SO much pain. You guys told me to cut contact.... but it's so hard. I deleted his number, but I know it by heart. It's so hard not to call. I want to cry so bad. I just hurt and I want to call him. I want to hear him and tell him I love him and hear it back..... but there's no point- he won't change and I won't go back. Help me... I'm losing my mind and I'm scared I'll go back with him (after leaving 4 times) yet I want to go back with him SO bad. How do I stop loving him?
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