My husband moved out today, something I've been looking forward to. We've been sleeping in different rooms for ages and I am constantly craving alone time, a quiet house. So why am I feeling so sad. I'm suddenly not craving alone time or th quiet. It's too quiet. 2 of my 3 kids are sleeping at his place. I'm actually surprised at how sad I am right now. Does being alone after not being alone for 9 years ever get easier? I'm assuming it will, just like anything. I don't think I want to get used to it. I'm feeling so conflicted. I talked to him for a few minutes to say goodnight to the boys and see how getting settled was going. It was the strangest feeling, suddenly having nothing to say and no reason really to need to have something to say. At the end of our call his voice got kinda funny, I asked if he was ok and he said he's not feeling well and had to go. He's not one to cry much and he wasn't sick earlier today. I have a huge pit in my stomach thinking he might be drunk or on something. He's been clean for about 5 months after 11 years of serious substance abuse. I know the kids are safe so why do I care so much that he might be using again.
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