My 1st court day is coming on July 11th - I was granted temp custody by the lady judge (not really a surprise because of the abuse) but I'm feeling wired as I have NEVER in over 20 years of marriage been on the opposite side of my husband in a legal matter. I keep having to tell myself - it was his choice by getting angry and not getting help when offered. still, sitting in a court room not in support of each other is so surreal. The nice lady judge told me not to have a false sense of safety as TRO is only a piece of paper. Said I understood that. Still - I feel fuzzy - like maybe I want to wake up and this would have all been a nightmare....but I know it is not a nightmare. and i will have to be strong enough to travel down this road.....stbx told me today on the telephone "I'm trying" to do better....I said, you have been telling me that for over 2 years and things have only gotten worse, I don't want to hear "I'm trying" anymore (I did say it kindly) but still....is it normal to feel strange when all of this is happening?
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