Everyone expects me to be ok and look after my grandma and my mum. And i try, i try so hard not to cry when i'm with them, to keep the attention on them, but its so hard. I act like i'm happy, i sing, smile, but its so hard, sometimes i just stop breathing, literly. Then, they have a go at me for being selfish, i should be supporting everyone else, yes i get that, and i do, but i'm sad too. I have to act around everyone i have no one I can lean on, everyone's on me. I cant cry with them, and all i want to do is cry, but its not about me, thats fine, but i just want to be able to let go of the fakeness and be sad. I just want everyone to forget i exist for a week. I need to let it out if i'm ever gonna get over it, but i cant, no one lets me, what am i supposed to do?
Posts You May Be Interested In
theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...