I recieved a diagnosis of PTSD and BPD in April of this year and was completely devastated. My psychiatrist referred my to group therapy who specalise in BPD- l started the group a few weeks ago and so far all it has done is made things worse. L know that things will get worse before they get better but l can't stand the way l am feeling now. I have terrible flashbacks of past abuse and rape and l can't make them stop. my self harming is off the scale and l am cutting numerous times a day but having to cut deeper to make the flashbacks stop. Iam having terrible suicidal thoughts and now find myself planning. I have been back to see her but ask for some antidepressants and something to help with the flashbacks but she just keeps saying to try to work through it. Feeling that l am not in a place to work through it as it isall coming out too fast and l feel like l amdrowning in it all. Everything is such a mess and dont know how much more l can take. Feel that this is my punishment for being such a bad person. It hurts so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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