In the last month I have been mostly angry, worried and then finally enraged for the last couple of days. Yesterday I met with my shrink after not seeing him for 5 weeks, thinking he had terminated my therapy after almost 18 yrs. but I went into the session with the attitude that I would remain calm and I told him all that I went thru. What I find is so devastating about BPD and I think there was some PTSD in how I felt,is that it seems there is no control over the moods. Once the anger begins it becomes painful and the inner dialogue so intense, trying to stop yourself from heading down the black tunnel of pain. Has anyone got a solution to lighten the intensity of this rage and why does it happen? Is it neurotransmitters now that I know all I know? I have read that there is NO cure to personnality disorders, just ways of dealing better with it. That's pretty lousy
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