For the last week I have been trying my hardest to control an episode of absolute frustration and rage because if I lose control I fear I may self injure again. The last time it put a huge hole in a wall of the house and gave me a bruised hand for a week, The issue is with my therapist of almost 18 years. A month ago I had to cancel an appointment due to my shift at work changing.I left a message with the secretary. My therapist knows that my shifts change and is supposedly okay with that. Well since then he has not called back to reschedule. I called first to reschadule for that week. No return call. I then waited a little more than 2 weeks and left another message stating that my schedule had changed back to the way it was. I waited 3 days and NO call. So I called again last Friday and the secretary called to say that the extension had changed and she gave me the new one. She knew I had called 3 weeks ago. I haven't gotten a call back yet ! This is not the first time it has happened and the last time it did I made a big deal of it and became uncontrollably enraged . My therapist called me finally and told me to go to the emergency. He then called me back the next day and rescheduled. By the way my therapist is a psychiatrist and sometimes he doesn't seem to really care. He knows what it does to me to be ignored and dismissed. Can anyone give me some insight as to why this happens?
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