I am a woman in the first loving relationship of my life with a man. Things were steamy at first, but now, as we move into the close/loving phase I find myself fantasizing about women during sex. I haven't had sex with a woman, and don't know if I want to, but it's in my head a lot. I feel like it's a betrayal to my partner. The last time I had these bisexual thoughts was when I was in a sexually abusive relationship with a former boyfriend. My sister suggested that my lesbian fantasies are a way of avoiding closeness with men, because deep down I'm afraid of them. My current boyfriend is SO sweet and supportive and we DO have good sex sometimes. And I don't want to hurt him because he is a little sexually insecure. And I'm pretty sure I love him. What I really want to hear is--is what my sister says possibly true? Am I betraying my boyfriend with these thoughts? Am I betraying myself if I don't explore my fantasies? I really don't want to screw this relationship up because of sexual demons from my past. Please help.
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