So... this is sort of an update to my old post.

I told my friend that I like her, because I really do. I also told the girl with the gay dad that I'm bi.

So the girl with the gay dad told me that she was bi, and that she liked me. I had guessed this, but I hadnt said it, thinking we both needed our own personal space. I was just like "oh. Cool." When she told me, but I guess she wanted something.... more intimate.

I've been hurting everyone lately. I can't stand it anymore, but I've thought through suicide, and my lame self decided she was too scared to. So I'm alright now, in that area, I guess. But I still feel terrible about my self. I've been hurting her, the girl I like, too. She's straight, and I know she doesnt want to hurt me, so its been really awkward. Yesterday, I was feeling particularly down, and I really couldnt see her hurt because of me anymore. I told her that I would try to stop, again. (Liking her). I've been trying, but its just so... hard. It hurts like crazy, and everytime I see her, I react in some way. Shifting my position, and being much happier, its crazy. I love her, but Its hurting her. I dont know what to do anymore. I just want to not hurt anyone. But I love her. I know I should care about her more, so thats what I'm doing. What do you think is the right thing to do?

Thanks for listening to my long rant. Its just been hard. I know its hard for everyone here, but I just feel so selfish and self-centered around my friends. They all care about me too much, and its hurting them. And I dont want to see that.