I don't know what to do with my Bisexual desires. I am married to a straight man and although my husband knows that I am Bisexual. It is a struggle because my husband and I are Christians and the Bilife doesn't jive with our religion. I was raised with a strict Christian background and I am a Preacher's daughter. I can't go into it all right now but I was also abused and I have been diagnosed with mental illness. These things do have an effect on my sexlife. I can't say that I agree with all of the teachings on sexuality or mental illness being taught in the Christian community. I just don't know how to stop feeling this way. It is not like my Bisexuality just goes away because I am a Christian. I may never know why I am able to love men and women in a romantic way. I have no desire to leave my husband of 10yrs.And I do not just have a crush or am going through some sort of faze. I am not just interested or attracted to both sexes. I have been sexual intimate with both and shared long term relationships with both. How ever I have only had experiences with straight men and one Lesbian woman. I have never been involved with another Bisexual person. At this point I don't feel accepted by the straight community or the gay community. I was confused at first but now I am not. I have an equal love for both sexes and in my heart I do not believe that I can choose one over the other. However because I have spent the majority of my life in the straight community it is more familar to me.I am open about my sexuality. It is not a secret to my spouse, family or friends. However there is no one in my life that I can relate to about this. So I joined this community in a quest to meet other people that can. I don't know if anyone has any advice for me but I sure could use some and I am open to listen and to any advice that others are willing to share.
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