Im 18 and on some level always knew i was different. I was abused as a child and thought that was why I didn't like men or relationships too much but developed crushes on girls. This one girl I developed a major crush on, 4 years older she was too good to be true, we became good friends. She came out the closet to me and then 2 monnths later told me she loved me, and I was crazy in love with her. She was the first person I ever opened up to about my childhood and she made me feel safe and secure and she understood, having an abusive background herself. She promised me she would always love me and never leave me, she always wanted me in her life even as friends. Then out of the blue a year and a half later she backed off and asked to just be friends, she started being nasty to me and spending a lot of time away from me. I wanted her back and she said I was pushing her and I hurt her...how I do not know but she told me she never wanted to hear from me again. She totally destroyed me and broke my trust completely which is so difficult for me to give anyway and I can't get over her, its been months. I still love her, will i ever get over her and love again?
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