I have always felt as if I didn't fit in with the crowd. Always felt weird or different even though I am a pretty standard looking white girl (woman). So in the past year or so when I finally was able to say, after an affair with a woman, that I was bisexual, I felt like this might be why I didn't feel that sense of belonging very often. Some of my lesbian acquaintances think I am ignorant about the identity politics and the need to claim sexual identity. Many of my hetero friends who don't know me that well think my bi thing is about having been in a bad relationship and trying to open up my playing field. Ater a very promiscuous hetero adolescences, I actually saw a psychologist at 25 b/c I was having invasive lustful thoughts about women and thought I was a freak. Now, at 39, I know who I am. I'm relieved! But I still don't fit in. Anyone else have these kind of thoughts?
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