All I can say is love is never easy.

She just may not be able to cope with that side of her. I would let the idea of being with her go for now. Give her a week. then just call her to say hi. let her know you just don't want to loose her friendship.

I am still not fully able to deal with my sexuality. I don't know if I ever will be.

Time is all I can say for everything.

I wish you Peace Love and Light
Hugs

Thanks so much. Will do.

Well like some people get busy, maybe she lost her cell? or is really busy i am sure if u give her time she will call txt or email back just give her time

Wow this is tricky. I really hope things work out for your soul growth and love experience. I would give her some space to work out where she is at. Going only your side of the situation, which can be in all honesty biased, even with the well meant intentions...(sometimes we only see what we want to see in relationships with others) it seems as though you have been comfortable in your skin for a long time now. It seems as though your girl friend of 15 years ago (what caused the gap in communication for so long) has just come full circle with the issue of her sexuality. Maybe this is a testing ground for her, maybe she is ready, maybe she is not being totally sincere? Don't know. All I can say is this, it seams you have had deeper feelings for her in this regard than she has been either willing or not aware enough to admit in her past with you. I would take it slow, very slow and always keep in toucn with what you are feeling and experiencing at any given moment. This is your life, your feelings, your mental well being at stake here. Try your best to stay grounded.
If you can be aware of your friends motives as well, make sure they are what she says they are.

Good luck and God speed

Mystic

The friendship failed in 1992 when we finished our A Levels when we were 18. She got a boyfriend and moved away. I didn't move on as she did. Stayed at family home and continued studying. We were the bestest of friends - we were aways together at school and out. There was nothing that I wouldn't do for her, as I loved her. I probabally had a crush on her, but I didn't understand sex at that time. I just held her in great esteem.

Well, it sounds as though you might want to take this slow. It seems that although you have been "in love" with her for sometime, even with a very close relationship between the two of you, it still is something to crawl with, it has been 15 years, that is a long time. You both have had new experiences since then, and hopefully the both of you have evolved since then. I would if it were me, take it slowly and make sure to check in with her and myself so that I am aware of what is going on, being truthful about it and then assessing whether or not this is what I would want. Love takes time and getting to know yourself takes longer.

Good luck

Love and light

Mystic

I must admit that I have felt very hurt on not hearing from her for two weeks. I sent her a nice and light letter, enquiring as to wether we can be friends, and if we can hang out some time. She rocked my world!!