wife just found out I'm bisexual. took a new job in a new town in march. moved there for 3.5 months until the family joined me a few weeks ago. Haven't been happy in marriage for at least the last few years. last fall started occasionally exploring my other side through camming. skyped with a few guys just for the fantasy, but the last person I did that with right before I left stuck with me. We chatted a bit and wanted to talk again. My extreme loneliness and depression that immediately followed the move gave me more reason to talk with this person. we connected very quickly and he became a confidant. it was never the intention, but with daily chats and more camming, we quickly developed an emotional relationship. we were falling for each other. Ive been dealing with many emotions and depression since april, and now I'm back living with my family. it's been extremely hard to focus on them, because of this relationship. it gave me feelings I've never experienced before. I don't want to let it go. weeks before the family moved here, I opened up to my wife about my unhappiness and that my love for her had faded long ago. of course this was quite a shock to her.. and she didn't know how to react, or if she should even move here with the kids. for several weeks leading up to the move, I did my best to limit my time with this other person, because I knew how hard it was going to be to let go of this freedom I had, with someone I was so connected to..we tried our hardest to convert to just friends. my wife inadvertantly discovered a message that made her question what was going on.. a few days after they got here. after several discussions and denial, she got the whole truth out of me. as much as a relief it was to get the big secret off my shoulders, it has now brought other dilemmas. I have NEVER been with a guy before and this relationship has now made me realize that I need to experience this if I am ever going to know who I am. we have been together since our teens and I've NEVER been with anyone else. she has offered for me to go and spend a weekend with this person to experiment. As much as I want to do this, I'm afraid that this will force me to accept who I am, and in effect, change my life forever. My wife loves me 100% and is afraid to lose me, and wants to do whatever it takes for us to remain together. I wish I felt the same.. and I don't know how to move forward. We have been more open and honest about everything in the last few days than in the entire 24 years we've known each other. I don't know what to do. she knows the risk of letting me go there. looking for suggestions..
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