I've been bi since 8th grade when i first allowed myself to explore my attraction to girls. Then, through HS and college, i allowed myself to tell a select few friends and was able to be promiscuous, but never my family (except for little sis.) Then, i met my husband. After nine years of not being with a woman, i realize that the probs in my sex life with my hubby are because i've been lacking that part of me that I know exists. So, hubby has given me free and total permission to have what i like to call "girlie friends." Yet, in trying to find a new girlie friend, i found love. True, honest, pure, real, raw, emotional love. The kind of love i wish my husband would give me. Now, i am stuck choosing between my husband i've been with for 9 years, or a woman who loves me mind, body and soul. To make the soup even thicker.....she is a lesbian. She knows I am bi and says she openly accepts it. But, she is young, and has so much ahead of her. I am 31, hubby is 33, she is 23. I fight feelings of doubt, conflict, anger and happiness all rolled into one.
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