Bisexuality Support Group
Bisexuality is a sexual orientation which refers to the aesthetic, romantic, and/or sexual attraction of individuals to other individuals of both their own and the opposite gender or sex. Most bisexuals are not equally attracted to men and women, and may even shift between states of finding either sex exclusively attractive over the course of time.
Okay so I'm not totally out of the closet. I don't think I'll ever will be. I have been comfortable in my little "prudent" corner (see Across the Universe and you'll know what I mean :).
ANyway today at work I was simply just being myself. Guard and defenses down. I had no idea a certain person would be working-a person that is the center of my flutterings in my stomachs-knowhing that I shouldn't feel this way...There are many reasons why. It's like having a teacher's crush in a way but on so many complicated levels...We don't really connect and at times I feel she might be judgemental or even "afraid" of me if that's even the appropriate term to assign this situation. Perhaps it is that uncertainty that is alluring?...
But to be able to not be totally bothered by her presence to be just who I am, humorous, witty, whatever, I felt the risk of drawing her closer yet felt the need to be discplined for reasons of my integrity. Please don't say life is free and open. Doing what you want can also hurt others, and if I did what I want, I'd be hurting others emotionally....
Okay, well, whatever. this is getting convoluted. But I just thought I'd say or even ask, are there environments and/or people you wish you could get to know better or even share a deeper relationship but know you have to hold back for the interest of both parties?...
Sigh...
I've said my peace :)
have a nice day
ANyway today at work I was simply just being myself. Guard and defenses down. I had no idea a certain person would be working-a person that is the center of my flutterings in my stomachs-knowhing that I shouldn't feel this way...There are many reasons why. It's like having a teacher's crush in a way but on so many complicated levels...We don't really connect and at times I feel she might be judgemental or even "afraid" of me if that's even the appropriate term to assign this situation. Perhaps it is that uncertainty that is alluring?...
But to be able to not be totally bothered by her presence to be just who I am, humorous, witty, whatever, I felt the risk of drawing her closer yet felt the need to be discplined for reasons of my integrity. Please don't say life is free and open. Doing what you want can also hurt others, and if I did what I want, I'd be hurting others emotionally....
Okay, well, whatever. this is getting convoluted. But I just thought I'd say or even ask, are there environments and/or people you wish you could get to know better or even share a deeper relationship but know you have to hold back for the interest of both parties?...
Sigh...
I've said my peace :)
have a nice day
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
There is this one girl at work, we've only hung-out outside of work a few times. I would love to share a "deeper" relationship with her (and she with me as well), but we both are in heterosexual relationships and do not want to hurt our other-halves or our children.
It gets hard sometimes, but we know that we can't ever take it further than causual flirting or joking around. Too many other people are at stake.