11 months ago, I realised I was bi. I was in love with a friend which I had met a few months previous. However, I didn't want to admit it as I was in a relationship and I just didn't want to admit to myself that I wasn't like my friends. That relationship ended and the feelings for the girl became stronger. So strong that I was scared to be around her because I didn't want peole noticing how I felt. Hoping it would put a stop to the feelings, I decided to just try and get another relationship. However, they all ended and it didn't stop the feelings. In the end, I got drunk and decided to tell her. It was the best and worst thing I have ever done. I found out that she felt the same way about me but we couldn't be together. She's got a lot of health problems and lots of shit going on and she just couldn't think about having a relationship at the moment. So, I waited around for her, hoping she would say she was ready. She would hint that she was and then drop me down. Which hurt. It hurt a lot. So after some advice from a friend, I decided to move on. Now I'm in a loving relationship with a guy who I do love. He is a special guy and I don't want to hurt him. But there's just one problem. I thought I was over her but I'm not. She gives me a feeling, a buzz that no one has ever given me. I love her. I know I do..but I don't know what to do. I love them both. I don't even know if I'm actually bi as she's the only girl I have ever been attracted to..I don't know what to do..
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