I cannot believe I sit here today,and am just now finally able to talk and tell my story.A story thats haunted me for 17 years.I'm embarassed and releaved.At 16 I was removed from my home by child-welfare,because I was so badly beaten.I was sent to live in a state home.It was there that I learned unconditional love.I had never loved or been loved ,(I was adopted at age 2).Anyway the love I received was from a woman.I knew,and so did she ,that we understood each other without words.She was 30yrs.old,Iwas 17.That doesnt matter.Point is ,yes she was older,and she used her exspearience to guide me ,not hurt me.She never pushed me,in fact she put up with me.I loved her so much,I cursed her out,went out partying,and made her worry constantly for my safety.Every time I came home,she still never had a bad word towards me.She just smiled with tears in her eyes and said,"welcome home,my angel,Im glad your home safe,are you okay"?I will exsplain more if anyone would like to talk,because I need so bad for someone to hear me.I have not been able to love again or be loved as much as I did with her.The kiss we shared will not leave my mind ever,neither will my desparity to feel that love again.